Sharing with you my video

Hello everyone this is a video that my classmate and I made for class!

Calm Down - Don't Sweat the Small Stuff

Lately I have realized that I've become even more hot-headed and impatient than before. It's like if something ticks me off I can't control my anger and then I just want to kick and break everything in sight (not that I go that far but I feel like it) lol...

I've always thought I was more on the short side when it came with anger and temper than some very patient people but I feel like I've been less pushing myself back when it comes to expressing my opinion or mood about something. Why? I don't really know. Maybe I've just concluded to myself that some people are just really dumb or situations are just really unfair and that if I feel that way then why hold myself back?

There comes a point where you need to control yourself because your actions can really burst out at the spur of the moment. You might do something that you regret because of that one instance you were ticked off.

So I've decided that I want to work on controlling my temper, my comments, and my opinions to a healthy level because I feel like I've given myself too much permission to be loud and voice what I want to say a little "too much". The reason being is because when I was younger I let a lot of people step all over me and I was too scared that people would get mad at me or hate me. Not that I'm saying I should care so much about what people think but I don't want to offend the good people in the world or give those that are having a good day a bad day just because I'm having a bad day.

Here are a few helpful tid-bits so I ensure I will control my emotions and not let things ruin my day:

1) You're never going to like EVERYBODY. There are those that will push your anger buttons; there are those you will disagree with entirely about everything.

- People are people: they have their own personalities, own outlook on life/things and just because you don't agree with them you shouldn't criticize them or talk smack about them (too much lol)

2) There are people that just like to butt in to your business

- Yeah there are occasionally those people that roll down their windows in the middle of the road and start yelling at you with racist comments because they're stuck in 5 o'clock traffic but these people obviously had a bad day or have a bad life or just well...maybe misunderstood something? Chances are you'll never see them anyways so why let your good day get ruined just because that random man from over there is yelling at you. Don't yell back. It just uses unnecessary energy because you two aren't going to kiss and makeup in that split moment of anger.

flower arranging to relax the mood? They say doing relaxing things can really help sometimes

3) You're not always right.

- Yeah this one has to do with your personal self. Maybe the problem is you. Maybe that man is yelling at you because you did something and you just didn't realize your own mistake. It's easy to blame others and pity yourself but sometimes the cause of the problem could be you. Sometimes you just need to take the blame and realize that hey, maybe I'm being a brat, maybe I did glare at that person with cut eye, maybe I was being condescending, maybe I really didn't help the situation. Whatever it may be, it takes a lot more courage and self-worth to realize that maybe it was your fault. Maybe you're the one to blame. Even though you weren't, maybe you can just let go of the situation by saying, "Fine. I'm sorry."

Relax and get your mind off with some soft, relaxing tunes. It really helps.

4) Maybe what you're thinking about them, they're thinking about you.

- When you have those negative ideas about someone and have those opinions and critical thoughts that just well...piss you off about them, maybe you should turn the tables around and think that they can be thinking that same exact thing about you. This can maybe relate to no. 4. So the next time you feel the need to criticize or get mad about something about someone just think - that person can think bad things about you and think you're a bitch.

5) Let their opinions be their opinions, and yours be yours.

- What people around you tell you is not coming directly from the source all the time so don't get overly angry and quick to judge unless you can think for yourself about the situation.

6) Don't let little things get to you.

- Plain and simple. Who cares if that person hates you, yells at me, criticizes you. Those people have to try really hard to bring you down to their level because you're always going to be above them.

7) There are angry people in the world.

- There are people that are just plain ANGRY. They can't help themselves. They don't know how to calm themselves down in situations and have a perma-frown on their face all the time. They get a kick out of just pissing you off because they're just plain douchebags. It doesn't mean you need to turn that smile upside down because they're forever living in an unhappy world.

8) Some people are just stupid. Who cares.

- That's right. Even though you give people the benefit of the doubt some people are just in the end stupid and there's no use trying to get through to them. This one might sound negative but that's when you know you just leave the situation alone and just forget about it and enjoy the sunshine.

9) Smile. Your smile can influence others.

- If you're angry the people around you are gonna have a bad day and it's all because of you. Thanks a lot.

10) Life is short and precious. Spend it wisely.

- Every moment you spend unhappy is a moment of happiness you'll never get back.

Opinions, criticisms, anger-moments to a healthy level please. It'll really help you in the end.

August, It's AUGUST!

Long time no blog.

I seriously am so bad at doing this. Even though this blog is made for my personal benefit, I can't seem to write out what has been happening lately. I used to be so good at this too. I loved writing in a diary/journal/blog type thing back in the days but it's seriously a difficult task for me to fulfill nowadays. Maybe I'm more busy now than before? Could be the case.

Anyways, Happy August!

It's a few days late but happy 8th month of the year nonetheless. Been keeping myself busy mostly with school and challenging myself with outside school work.

Been doing freelancing stuff. I tried to not do too much because I didn't want it to effect my school work but I quickly realized that 2nd semester is still not challenging enough for me. I toyed with the idea that maybe BCIT New Media has not been what I was looking for but when I think about some of the stuff I did learn, I suppose it has been valuable.

Mostly web stuff is what I learned. Photoshop and Illustrator...not to be vain but sometimes I think I'm better than the instructors when it comes to the knowledge of the program. :/

On the topic of "work" however, I have managed to somewhat stay on target with challenging myself with illustrating continuously and doing stuff for myself outside of school.

For instance, that 3-month Halloween illustration that I set for myself is well....finished. I'm a little embarrassed to even post that illustration not because I think it turned out bad (it actually turned out real nice actually) but because it's friggin' August and what am I doing with a Halloween picture?!

Overall, it really did turn out nice. I'm satisfied with its outcome but I think I will save the posting till maybe...September. lol.

I have also been restructuring my webpage (yet again, I know) and I have been deleting a few sections and adding new ones like "posters" and "photos". I'll finish coding soon so I can put it up.

Soon I will have sections like "animation" there soon! EEEE. I have a HUGE project goal for this winter. I seriously cannot wait to do it. Finally an animated short utilizing Flash, Sountrack Pro, and Final Cut Pro. hehe. <3

Blog you later!

And thus it continues...

Back to school!

It's been the first week back and what can I say? 2nd semester is SO much better than the first. Obviously, like I mentioned before, the 1st semester had introductory courses that was boring enough and dry enough to make me go "zzz." Now that those are past and I've fully recovered from my illness during my one week break - I am back in gear and ready to roll.

I like my courses for 2nd semester right now. In particular, I think I'm interested in Flash. Just because it is an animation based program and since I was once an aspiring animation student, it's sort of fulfilling that need for me to animate something. I haven't touched Flash in ages but it really came back to me what the program was like. Not that I was ever pro at it but first class pretty much refreshed my memory of the things I knew before.

Overall, 2nd semester = me likey.

So the challenges I have decided to give myself whilst I'm on the grind is also to continue to illustrate/create/paint/paper make etc. etc.

I realized that during the 1st semester I totally neglected illustrating and drawing and because I feel as though I can handle school at this moment, I want to challenge myself by not forgetting to illustrate.

I really want to get better. :(

1) My first challenge (which does not sound hard at all) is to finish an illustration by this Halloween. I have like 3 months to do this so I really don't think I'll have much trouble.

I have already done the preliminary sketch for it and made a good outline base to start my work. Anyways. 3 solid months to finish this simple illustration. I don't think it'll be that difficult....I think.

Here is the sketch.

And the outline.

I always find sketches always look better. lol.

2) Second challenge is to try to take anatomical classes. I need to practice body proportions more.

2 challenges while I'm in school. Oh and to do more freelancing.

Doesn't sound too bad. haha :P

Thinking when you're sick...

Still in recovery mode. It's hard to do any work or think about anything when your brain feels like a pile of goop. *sighz*

Nyquil's got me feeling better though. <3

So Sick...

So I'm on my week break from school and yes, semester 1 at BCIT hath finished. How was it you ask?

The classes I had for first semester at the New

Media Program were very introductory. I had classes like:

- Scanning and Color Correcting (by far the most boring course)

- Adobe Acrobat (maybe I learned a few things here and there)

- HTML (introductory yet still useful and essential)

- Graphics (very basic but I liked it)

- Information Architecture (not much to say about this....)

- Communications (zzzzzzzzz.....)

...and so on...

They were all very basic and I suppose a "necessity" but overall it wasn't all that exciting.

Semester 2 is coming up and I can't wait! It'll be more hands-on stuff...Flash, Dreamweaver, Programming, Interface Design...you know, the good stuff. Overall I'm pretty stoked for next week.

HOWEVER, I'm sick as a dog right now. I don't know what happened but my immune system decided to just DIE on me yesterday. It's a mixture of bad allergies and flu like symptoms so yes, I really cannot breathe out of my nose or taste my mom's home cooked korean food. I can't even go to the gym right now and believe me I really want to but my body is barely letting me walk at this moment. Great way to spend a week off huh? sigh...

The plus side is though, when you're sick as a dog and the weather really isn't being your friend you get to spend your quiet afternoon listening to relaxing music and painting pictures. harhar...yes, you may think that is quite the "old lady" thing to do but it's one of my best forms of relaxation. Heh Heh...

Tuesday afternoon painting - I decided to use watercolor to create a very "story-book" type of image on a canvas that has been sitting in my closet for ages.

The process:

Messy workspace I know. I can never paint when everything is neat and orderly. It's just one of those little things.

I don't actually really have space on my walls to even put this up. It was just to get my mind off of being very very ill. To see a bigger size of the painting visit: janejiyeonkim.com

Blog you later (if I don't forget)!

- Jane

My Favourite Type of Weekends...

Before I begin this blog post, my last post said something about "trying to blog" but I haven't been keeping up with that promise at allbecause honestly I find getting into blogging really difficult in the beginning stages. I really have lots to write about, really I do, but sometimes taking a moment tojust write out what I am thinking is somehow, extremely difficult.

It has been an extremely busy three months since December but I think the wave of busy bee life has somewhat subsided and I can kickback and relax (a bit) for the time being. This brings me to my blog today...

Aside from being totally frustrated, stressed, angry, and tired from a gruelling work week, my weekend was fabulous. The weather was beautifulllll in Vancouver this weekend and although I didn't really "do" much, I felt so relaxed and calm.

I went for nice walks, I drew some pictures, tweeked my website (which ran into some problems today but that's besides the point), cleaned my room, did the laundry, hung out with jihoon, saw my family... just a really pleasant weekend. :)

Oh and might I add, I got a new camera! I have some ideas for next creative projects with my little toy but until I fix the problem with my webhost (damn you hostgator!) I won't be getting much of it done.

In the meantime, a few random pictures of stuff you can find at my place that makes me want to cuddle up and sleep :)